Andy Smith 00:00 
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Welcome back to another episode of the PEMF Podcast and today we've got a really special guest Marlin Anderson who was on Series 2 of Love Island but has had quite a healing journey and a lot of experiences to share. So Marlin, I'll leave you to introduce yourself to the guest and if you could give us a little summary of your life up until this point.

Malin Andersson 00:32 
Gosh, so yeah, I've had quite a journey. And I was on Love Island eight years ago now. So I'm old, I was one of the OGs, series two. And unfortunately, I stepped into a lot of trauma in my adulthood. So I'll bottle it down quite quick. I went through an abusive relationship, I lost my mom. I then lost a child within six months. I battled with eating disorders pretty much my whole life, which I only just kind of healed about a year ago. And I battled with binge drinking, cocaine use. The list is endless. And I just went on a huge internal discovery with myself whilst trying to help other people too. So now I do a lot of motivational speaking. I'm starting wellness days and I'm just trying to shed light on topics no one really wants to talk about. So yeah, that's where I'm at.

Andy Smith 01:23 
Yeah, no, they're good. That was a good, that was a good summary. So, I mean, let's talk about your time on Love Island, because a lot of our audience are Americans. They might not see in the UK version. But you was probably on, for me, because I actually watched a series you were in. Did you? I did. And it was probably one of the most, you know, kind of controversial moments that had ever happened on Love Island. Yeah. So, you know, you've propelled into fame as well. So it's another big thing. So, you know, you were booted off the show. You were in what everyone could see was the most solid relationship in that villa. Little did we know that as soon as you were out the picture, Terry would move on quite quickly. And then they put you back in to have a chat with him, you know, to confront him. And that, for me, is probably one of the most memorable moments that ever lived on Love Island until now. So, yeah, tell us about that moment quickly.

Malin Andersson 02:20 
Gosh, so yeah, Love Island, I was still really young. And I didn't really know what I was signing up for. I was actually battling with body image a lot before I went into the villa. I still had bulimia. I still had, was restricting my food intake. I thought I was fat. It wasn't a good time to go into something like that. I mean, the screening wasn't thorough either and they were just like, yeah, go in. And I was in it and I was kind of, it was a blur for me. I actually had sexual abuse happen to me about a month before I went into the villa and there was a court case going on. And I'd only just spoken about that in my book. You think you read, I don't know if you read it. Yeah, I've read.

Andy Smith 02:58 
You've got your book, actually. I've just left it in the car. I was going to pick it up for you. I don't want schoolboy.

Malin Andersson 03:01 
And nobody knew about it, and I had then swallowed that up. So for me, it was going into this bubble, no time. They told me when to eat, told me when to sleep. You're with these people that you just met and they become your family, right? And you fall in like love is not even love. You fall for these people really, really quick because you've got no choice but to. It's like the Truman Show, have you seen that? Yeah, yeah. Yeah, and so- Actually one of my favorite films, I love that. Yeah, it's one of my favorite films. And I got a couple of Ryokard, I saw Terry come in and I was like, yeah, he's a bit of me. And I don't know this guy, if you think about it, Love Island portrays dating in this kind of new age dating. You swipe on Tinder, you go on a date and then you're like, oh yeah, this works. And you go again and then you think you're in love with someone, but you don't actually know the person, right? And that's what happened to me. I left the villa, he moved on. I actually was out partying with the towel lot in Spain and I got a call and I was hungover like, can you come in? Can you come in? We want you to come back here. And I was like, fuck. And I went back in, did my thing. And I was hurt, but I was hurt in a sense of, I'm not good enough. Why has he done that to me in front of everyone? And I was actually really, really embarrassed and felt my lack of self-worth go down quite quickly from that because it was such an embarrassing thing, right?

Andy Smith 04:16 
Yeah, yeah.

Malin Andersson 04:16 
Like in front of everyone, I've left and he's just moved on. And then yeah, and then that happened and I came out and you are thrust into the limelight and things are just shoved in your face. You're chasing this thing that no one really understands what is. We didn't understand what we'd get from it because we were serious too. We went in there just for pure kind of bounce, right? And you just find yourself seeking this lifestyle, which is not real, not real life. It's unachievable, but you also lose yourself in the process. I remember selling teeth whitening toothpaste and I was like, what the fuck am I doing when I look back now? You know, you're just selling your soul, basically. The crash happens when the next series comes out and you know, you get thrown to a side. For me, my mum died a year post-life island, cut all my hair off. I remember that. Had a bit of a Britney Spears moment. Met my abusive ex-partner, had a child with him. I lost her after her being alive for a month in Great Ormond Street. Battle court, he went to jail for domestic abuse. And then I suddenly became this advocate for women's rights, but I wasn't even healing myself. So I was doing all this work with charities, videos, talking about mental health. And it was all good because that's what I loved doing and I loved doing that. But I put myself to a background. COVID happened and I was still recording these videos, helping other people, but I was partying still. This was about two years before I had Zaya. I was partying, flying to Dubai, living my life. I was running away from everything that I was actually talking about, which is ironic and no one really knew, so yeah.

Andy Smith 05:54 
So what do you think that that did to your mental health then when you came out of Love Island, you know, and suddenly, I think you say in your book, you know, people recognise you're on the street and asking you for autographs and pictures and that sort of thing. Like, what journey did you go on from then onwards?

Malin Andersson 06:13 
There's always been a lot of lack of self-love with me from childhood, emotionally unavailable parents. My dad passed away when I was little, so I never had or received father love, but that impacted me quite a lot. So to go on a show and then come out and be recognized, I was like, why are they looking at me? All my insecurities were being filled. I'm like, they recognize me, and then I'd get paranoid, I'd go into Tesco's, and all of that. Felt like I couldn't leave all that makeup on, people coming up to me. And that little, I was gonna say autistic, I probably am. That little girl inside of me was insecure and shy and didn't really understand what was happening. But then I would drink, go out partying, I'd lap it up, like, yeah, photos, photos, and I thought I was a fucking bomb. And my ego took over, right? But as I said, I think the trauma stopped me from going down a path I shouldn't have got, was gonna go down. I'm actually grateful for what happened after.

Andy Smith 07:10 
Yeah. And you've written about in your book that, you know, and it's quite public now that some of the contestants took their own life after Love Island. So we know that that is a huge impact being thrust into that fame. Is there anything you can, you know, kind of say, have you spoken about that scenario and what would you say to others?

Malin Andersson 07:34 
Yeah, I think, again, if you're not mentally prepared to go on something as big as Love Island, you might think you are, but you're actually probably not. Again, if you're battling with demons and you go on the show and you're living your best life and then suddenly you've spent all your money and work's not coming in anymore, you're going to just fall apart. And I think cocaine use was one of the biggest things. With suicide, I know a lot about what happened to Caroline, Mike and Sophie. Sophie was in my series. It was heartbreaking because we had no aftercare. I remember getting a call like a year after my little one died or something, are you all right? And they just do like a courtesy checkup. And they might say that it's not their priority or their duty, sorry, because that's what we signed up for. But I think once you are in the public eye, you cannot get out of it unless you go and really delete everything, like Terry did, deleted Instagram and everything. There's nowhere to be seen. Good on him for doing that, right? I always knew I had a higher purpose and that was to use my voice to speak, but it wasn't about shitty whitening toothpaste. And that's why my soul's journey took an event and like redirected itself.

Andy Smith 08:48 
Yeah, yeah. No. 100%. And that seems to be your mission now and kind of while we're talking to you today. So we'll come on to like your, you know, your mission at the moment, but you've already mentioned it in this podcast. You said something about your inner child. So take me back to what that is. Where does the inner child come from and what's your definition of that?

Malin Andersson 09:08 
God, I can go quite deep with this. So we all have that child inside of us, right? Who we were from the ages of zero to whatever, to your teens. From zero to seven, our brains are so adaptable. They're like sponges. We take in everything that is told or taught to us, whether it's from our teachers, our caregivers, society, friends, we will start to do what they think we should be doing. So we end up wearing these masks, right? And for me, my mom worked really hard. She was emotionally unavailable, but she spoiled me. So she gave me loads of toys to play with, but I'd be playing with them on my own. I had no attention. There was a lot of shouting growing up in my, in my household a lot. I lived with my two brothers, my sister, they'd be arguing. It was a very toxic environment. But again, my mom was born in Sri Lanka. She came from poverty, right? And then my dad died. So she had four kids. She moved from Sweden to England and she just worked, worked, worked. And she passed down what she knew. And we call that generational trauma, right? It keeps on going and going until one, one of us decides to end it. AKA me. I don't want to say I have any of what I had. And what I started to discover with the journey to inner child healing was I only understood it when I started to meditate and meditation unlocked a superpower within my brain to allow myself to be still in a world where our nervous systems are completely on fire and dysregulated because we don't know any better. And we just keep going and going and going until we get burnt out and we get put on meds. And then it's another whole cycle. And for me, meditation opened up this space within me where I was able to start feeling this pain that was so deeply rooted in me. Now we have seven chakras, right? Seven points of energy in our system. We've got the root.

Andy Smith 10:57 
Yeah I'm gonna talk to you about chakras I need you to educate me as well okay so yeah go on.

Malin Andersson 11:03 
So basically, the root chakra is our purpose, where we are in this world, our identity, who we are, a lot of our childhood, right? Our sacral, it's our feminine energy, it's our masculine energy, but it's our sexual energy, and it's what's so suppressed in women. It's also anything that has had trauma done to. So sexual abuse, rape, anything to do with your sacral. Being suppressed, like my parents, I used to stop acting like I was growing up because I wanted to be that kid still. I was a tomboy, grew up with two older brothers, I started developing boobs and I had to hide them in tops. My uncles were really strict, don't wear a skirt like that. All of these things start to come up in meditation, which I'll get to, right? And then you've got your solar plexus, gut issues, IBS. Every bit of trauma is stuck in our stomach, man. You know, when someone tells you often you're a kid, you go, you're swallowing that and you go straight into the stomach. So that is like the prime place of childhood trauma. And then obviously you've got your heart, then your freedom of expression, then you've got your third eye, which everyone's is calcified because of fucking florid. That's another thing I'm going to talk about. And then you've got your crown, which is a journey to enlightenment, if that exists. And so for me, meditation started unlocking all of these thoughts. So intrusive thoughts, which I thought were just a load of bollocks. No, when you start to get these thoughts, they're coming from a place in your body which has held the trauma. And so the more I did that, the more I'd start to feel and then memories were getting triggered. I started buying toys that I played with as a childhood because both my parents had died. I couldn't ask any more questions. I did this all on my own or all of this discovery. I had to sit with myself and understand why the fuck I'm either way I am. Is it because my mum did this or said this to me at this point of my life? So even I'll give you an example. I remember having a supply teacher at school. I was five years old. She was really nasty. So I wrote my teacher a letter saying, hi miss, I really miss you. When are you back? My supply teacher is really nasty. I don't like her. Left it on this table. Fucking supply teacher read it. I got called into school the next day. I'm five years old. And they told me off for saying that it wasn't nice, but I was expressing how I felt. And I got shunned really badly for it. And so that came up in a meditation not long ago when my throat was my throat, right? Freedom of expression, voicing your real truth, and being closed down when someone says, mommy, I feel like this. Oh, it's okay. You'll be fine. You'll be fine. It's all of these little things. It's like a jigsaw puzzle. So all of these things came up within me and slowly but surely the energy flow in my system now runs really smoothly where everything is open, especially this, which is nuts.  And I could talk about that later. We'll get into that. That's another thing I want to understand. But that's just the basics on inner child. I think it's getting in touch with her or him, hugging them and letting them know that they're okay. But it's not just that because you can tell yourself you love yourself all day in the mirror, but it's bullshit. To love yourself means accepting every part of you. And to do that, you have to go back in time and you have to address what these wounds are, why they were said to you and how they made you feel. And then you've got to let them go. You have to let them go.

Andy Smith 14:14 
Good answer. I understand a bit more now. Yeah. Okay, so when for you do you think this healing journey started? So there's been a lot of traumas in your life. Was there one particular one that pushed you over or was it a combination of them? Or is there a point in your life you remember starting this, this discovery, this journey?

Malin Andersson 14:36 
Yeah, very clearly. So Zaya, two months old, her dad left, we lived in this big barn together. And he left for his own reasons, his own traumas that he'd done addressed and went back to his mom's and I was there with a two month old baby. And then we started co parenting, which was probably the toughest thing because I thought I had that victim mentality, right? Because I had all of these traumas in such a short space of time and nothing was healed. And I was like, why does everything I love leave me, I even have to co parent my newborn baby, like that's right. And so whenever she'd leave me on the weekend, I'd go out and drink and sniff cocaine and run away because with alcohol, I think it took me about five drinks that I'd want the coke, right? Yeah, I wouldn't know when to stop. And then I'd feel like shit that come down to a fucking horrific, I'd be suicidal, and then I'll get Zaya back the next day, and I'd be okay again for a week until she left again. Yeah, I kept repeating the same cycle. And this was last year, right? 2023, I'll be okay for two months, I'd go sober, announce on Instagram, be the advocate everyone wanted me to be and then I'll be out in the session the fucking weekend, what a hypocrite, right? So there was clearly something not addressed. And then one day I went for a drive. I felt very lonely as well, Andy, a lot of my life, I've had a lot of loneliness and pain, right? And I had that when I was a kid. So I never knew how to sit with that loneliness. And I think I thought Zaya would solve all my problems. But instead, I've, I would probably have passed them down to her. So I remember going for a drive. And someone's homework had been stuck to my windscreen. And it was all about the nervous system. All right. And there's me like, do this coffee, this fake do that, never stop. And I saw another fuckers out and I kept it. Lo and behold, a few months after that, I checked myself into rehab twice. It was more of like a healing retreat, stroke rehab. So there's education behind it, but more about the yoga, the sound buffs, and meditation. And it was the first time in my life where I'd hit a rock bottom, because I couldn't understand what was happening to my body, the cells in my body, my mental health. And I went there, I created space myself three weeks about Zaya, and anyone around me. And I came back and I had been so buff for about a month. And yeah, two in the morning, and I had the weirdest thing happened to me, which I hadn't really spoken about on Instagram yet. Maybe I have on TikTok, but a lot of people think I'm nuts. But it's called a Kundalini Awakening. I don't know if you've heard much on the term Kundalini.

Andy Smith 17:03 
I've heard of it, but again, I'm not 100% what it means.

Malin Andersson 17:06 
So, Kundalini is energy that we all have inside of us. It's called life force. A lot of people call it Chi energy. It's basically in science terms, Joe Dispenza talks about it. It's your nervous system, re-regulating itself. And not everybody can access it in this lifetime. It depends if you've got to a point of either breakdown or you've done a bit of work to allow the energy flow through your root. So a lot of people are living with their root and their root and their solar plexus, right? They're living below the bottom three chakras. Once you get past that, you're winning. You're on your way up and you can see that everything's a fucking simulation. We're all in the matrix. But anyway, what happened to me was electric flow. Zay is a seat next to me in my bed. It's two in the morning. Electric was going through my body, through my feet. And I was like that, shaking. And I was like, what the fuck just happened to me? I woke up the next day, cut all my hair off. I went vegetarian, started questioning life and quantum physics, which I've never done in my whole entire life. And I started understanding that there is so much more to this life that we're living. And then, boom, it's just been working through this energy. We'll vibrate at night sometimes. My body will move on its own. If I lie down on a mat, on the pimp mat, my body will sometimes go off on its own. And it's your body re-regulating itself. So it starts off with stiff movements, but my body can produce mudras. They call it like yoga positions out of nowhere, which it sounds absolutely nuts, right? Because this is what they kind of have suppressed in all the humans. We've got superpowers within us, right? We're so powerful. Our bodies are so, so powerful. But our body holds trauma. So every time my body would go into a certain position, I remember once I had a Kundalini activation, someone came around and gave me one, even though my body activates on its own. I started doing that. And instantly, memories of my ex who used to strangle me came through and I was automatically releasing that stuck, the body being in that fight or flight. So when people say, you know, the body is just a body, our body, we should be living in our bodies, not our head. And so anyway, the journey has just been unlocking and unblocking and it's just been nuts this year.

Andy Smith 19:18 
The retreat you went on, is that the one you went to in Bali?

Malin Andersson 19:22 
No, so the rehab was just a year ago in the UK and it just gave me space to meditate and I remember starting off with a few minutes and then it got longer and I meditate for about an hour each day.

Andy Smith 19:36 
That brings me to my next point. So meditation talks us about that because like, like you say, you meditate for an hour each day, you know, some people think meditation is different for everybody, it's a different, you know, so what, talk us through your, your experience of meditation. How does that work?

Malin Andersson 19:52 
So when I used to say I meditated, I'd sit there with music, go out of meditation, close my eyes and be like, I'm done now. And it'd be like five minutes. I was a bit in denial because someone brought this up actually in rehab last year. They were like, you have to meditate in stillness. You can't have anything. And I was like, no, you can meditate anytime of the day, which is true. You can meditate when you're washing up, doing the dishes. That's called mindfulness. That's called being present in the moment. Because essentially all we have is now, right? Everyone's looking to the future or the past, but all we have is this present moment. And sorry, my nose has gone all hay feverish. So I forced myself to sit still like this, hands on my knees, upright. And I just close my eyes and focus on my breath. And it built up from five to 10, 10 to 20. And I can meditate for an hour to two hours now. And my palms will start to go on fire and I can feel energy rising through my body in complete stillness. It's not.

Andy Smith 20:51 
It's a using breath work as well I just focus on breathing you already.

Malin Andersson 20:55 
in, hold for two, four out, and then as soon as you kind of lose sight of your breath, that means you're in, you should be focusing on nothing. Your consciousness should be clear, your aura should be clear, and then you'll start to get downloads and visions coming through depending on how active your third eye is. So stillness is key. It's not what happens in meditation, it's what happens after meditation. Things will start to purge after.

Andy Smith 21:20 
Mm hmm. So you came to us before about PMF and PMF podcast, we have a little talk about that. Is that helping your meditation?

Malin Andersson 21:29 
Massively. Now, our bodies are energy, right? We are just electric. Our whole body is energy. And the minute I lie down on that, went into meditation, I fucking... You're gonna think I'm nuts again. I managed to remote view. I then use a lot of people in the army to do this. And I managed to get my consciousness to Brighton Beach and I started seeing people jogging on the beach. And I was like, what the fuck? Why can I see this? Because I was in such a relaxed state and my body and my nervous system was so regulated on that map due to the help of the frequency, the electromagnetic.

Andy Smith 22:05 
Yeah, so the electromagnetic pulse is so the satellite might using has a meditation setting which runs in the range of four to eight hertz, which is the perfect range for the brain to kind of move into that meditative state.

Malin Andersson 22:20 
Yeah. And I was like, oh my God. And that's something I hadn't been able to achieve without, right? I don't know why I wanted to go to Brighton Beach and see people running. There we go. I can't really pick and choose. And I came off that mat for the first time thinking, oh my God, my body. I was in a bit of a trance because I realized I'd been putting it on the wrong setting after I spoke to you. I've been doing meditation during the day, which is good, but not good if you've got Zaya. And my body just felt so relaxed, but in a state where it wasn't just like I'd gone for a sleep, I was functioning differently and my brain was more alert. And it almost felt like I was repairing something internal. It's hard to explain because through all the damage of binge drinking, binge drinking, alcohol, substance misuse, I must have lost a shitload of fucking brain cells and all that, surely. And that just seemed to do something to me. So I just kept it regular, even taking that on holiday, the remote, putting it in bed. Sitting with it. And whenever I'd start to get anxiety, I'd sit with it and have that with me.

Andy Smith 23:25 
I spoke to you, you was like a million miles an hour about it as well, which is quite cool, because it's like the first few times you'd used it, and it was like, oh yeah, I'm having an experience or something. No, but it's regular, so I have to.

Malin Andersson 23:33 
Even 10 to 15 minutes each day, I find a spot. And if I don't manage it, cause I've got Zaya in the evening, I'll take the remote, the controller to my bed. And do that. Yeah.

Andy Smith 23:43 
What actually brought you to PMF because you kind of contacted us and said, I want to know more about, you know, so was there, was there something you saw? How did you, how did you, I saw a brand online.

Malin Andersson 23:56 
I wanted to look more into it. Cause there's something, since having my awakening, I've just wanted to look after every part of my body and my mind, right? Whether it's supplements, exercise, health, the food we put in our bodies, so much shit out there, chemicals, processed stuff. I want my body to be as optimum, right? I want it to be the best it can be. And I know that the best it can be, the better my life around me is. Cause it's just, that's how it works, right? Yeah, yeah. And I saw this and I was reading up on the benefits. I was like, I need to fucking try one. I need to know what this does. So, yeah.

Andy Smith 24:33 
thing for a lot of people is it's it's trying to experience it because it's one of the things it's you won't understand until you've tried it so um do you use it for it so you're using it meditation or using it for anything else have you found any way uses for it

Malin Andersson 24:46 
Anxiety, I don't suffer with anxiety anymore unless there's something that's triggered me. And my heart started going, it probably was about two months ago, oh no, a month ago. And I just took the controller and I sat with it. I think I was on my way to a meeting or something in the car, I took it in the car. Instantly my body started regulating itself and I was like, how? But this is random, my psoriasis on my scalp is starting to go. And I don't know if that has anything to do with it, but that has been stuck put there for a year straight now. And I've noticed it's lying straight, head back on it, it's done something to it.

Andy Smith 25:20 
Yeah, I mean, 100% I would say it's definitely, it's the same conversation with so many people. They try, you know, they've tried lots of different things for different aspects. Like you say, they use PMF for one thing, maybe they're using it for sleep or something like that. And then suddenly like, oh, but I've had this current condition for a long time. And suddenly that doesn't hurt me anymore. And it's like, okay, because the, we always say the problem with PMF is that such a wide application, but then people were like you say, saying that it's helping for other conditions that they've had for a long time. So 100% keep it up and you might notice some other changes too. So.

Malin Andersson 25:55 
Well, my ex broke my little finger, right? And that started to, that swells, that starts to hurt when I'm lifting weights. Yeah. And it's been like, what, five years or something? And so I just stuck my hands out on it. And it's, there's more movement in there. Yeah, yeah. There's more movement, it's not playing up. And I haven't done anything differently, but I can take the same supplements, eat the same food, do the same thing. So that is an added thing. But what's so sad is that no one really knows about it. Do you know what I mean? I think it's proper.

Andy Smith 26:26 
You know, we've been in business for 10 years now and our whole mantra has been educating people on PMF. You know, it's only recently we've bought out our own system that you're using, but until then it's just educating. The NHS, I think, as good as it is, it pulls people back off of these alternative therapies. I mean, the NHS, you know, we've approached them multiple times and in terms of, you know, we've got something that will get you people out of the hospital beds in half the time and we're not interested. You know, is it tablet form? No. It's just, yeah. But they keep them being stuck. Yeah.

Malin Andersson 27:04 
Because that's money, big pharma, completely different than that. Another conversation. Yeah, but it's things like this that people need to try. But as I said, people are living too much in their heads. They need to understand that it's a body that needs to heal.

Andy Smith 27:17 
Yeah, and that's why our audience is quite prevalent in the US because the mind is changing in the US a lot more to preventative health and people are starting to take a lot more notice of their health and things like alternative therapies, you know, and big pharma is a big topic now and people want to find other alternative natural ways. At the end of the day, PMF therapy is working on your natural ability to heal. So something else you're saying a lot is everything in life happens for a reason. And actually I've got that tattooed on me so that was a bit of a sign. Do you? Yeah, I do. And the funny thing is, I do a bit of research on yourself before this podcast. I bought your book, had a little read about that. What's the name of your book to let everybody get that? It's an amazing read. The funny thing is it came in and we're talking about PMF just now and you know, it works on a cellular level and that's kind of how we tell people it's energising the cells. It's almost like recharging the cells and helping with the ATP. But I got your book, I opened it up and I flicked to one page and the page that I opened had this highlighted section that said Vibing High, which I think is throughout the book. But this particular one said about energising every cell and it was just like...

Malin Andersson 28:32 
I've got goosebumps there. Such a sign, you know.

Andy Smith 28:34 
It was like, and, and I was like, yeah, this, this, this was a moment meant to be. So, um, what, what did you mean by energizing every sound?

Malin Andersson 28:44 
Energizing every cell in our body is taking away anything that isn't good for you and rebooting yourself. And I think we're living in a rat race, man, where everyone is consumed by the smallest things and they're in jobs they don't want to do, they're over busy, they're over-stimulated, they're always on their phones, they're always stressed out, they're exercising because they want to lose weight, you know, everyone is stuck in a trauma response. And to energize your cells, you have to sit with yourself and actually fucking re-energize yourself. It's like us being phoned, you got to charge them, right? And that's what that does. The mat. But with energizing your cells, I think people don't really understand that our cells make us up, they make us who we are. But that's why illness manifests into the body, you know, it's through trauma too, it's disease, right? And I'm a huge believer in, you know, like certain illnesses come through, through certain traumas and things that aren't addressed. I'm not going to go too much into detail on that because I'm...

Andy Smith 29:58 
Yeah.

Malin Andersson 29:59 
people. But yeah, and let me try and give an example. My mom, she had cancer pretty much a whole life, a whole life was fucking awful. She carries so much pain, grief, she had a shit childhood, she was depressed, she was lonely, her cancer spread. Fucking we tried to give her a juice diet, nothing worked. Until she sorted out what was going on in here and release that trauma that was stuck within her and her cells and re energize herself. Yeah, she was always gonna die. She was gonna pass away. With me, my psoriasis, it was showing me something is within is blocked in one of my chakras, right? And when I get a sore throat, there's something to do with my throat, that needs addressing, you know, there's it's just a response to what's going on in here in planetary is there something deep in my cells that's going on, you know, yeah, people don't really know much about that.

Andy Smith 30:45 
And it's the energy transfer and there's a, there's a quote that you use that I quite like and it's a energy vampire.

Malin Andersson 30:51 
Yes. Lots of them everywhere.

Andy Smith 30:54 
So, tell me what's an energy vampire and what do you do to prevent that?

Malin Andersson 31:00 
So it's who we surround ourselves with says a lot about where we are, really, because I used to be like, okay, get rid of all the negative people in your life. Definitely do that. But if you seem to have this circle of friends still, and they're, you're hanging out with people that you don't want to fucking be with, there's some kind of attachment wound there. There's something that is holding you on to keeping this person around you. Are you, is your throat blocked? Are you too scared of saying, actually, I want to be, I don't want to hang out with you anymore. You know, and I think when people drain you, you're draining yourself by letting them drain you. We all have a choice to make. Um, I don't, I'm not using the word attract because you know, women that are in abusive relationships, you don't attract abusive partner, but you're actually repeating a pattern there. If you seem to get, you seem to keep getting into abusive relationships. There's that inner child wound in you that is allowing yourself to be with someone to treat you that way. Do you understand? Yeah. So for me, I had to address these little fine things in me, because I could say no to somebody, but then I might get someone else come into my life that would do the exact same thing as the other person. And what I started to realize is that all the relationships in my life were mirroring my mother's wound, which was emotionally unavailable. Every single man I've been with emotionally unavailable, carried a lot of trauma, a lot of pain, they all repeat the same, they had, they all had the same traits, right? And then until I addressed that within me, I was going to keep doing it. And I finally met someone that fucking doesn't carry any of them, right? Cause I've done the inner work and that's how relationships fail. That's another story as well, because it's just like, bam.

Andy Smith 32:40 
Yeah, yeah. Not on the same vibration they call it, isn't it? Or... Yeah.

Malin Andersson 32:44 
You need to meet each other there. If you've both done that work, that integrated deep work, you can open yourself up to that love. Because when you're in love with someone, you're actually saying you love yourself. You understand?

Andy Smith 32:58 
Yeah, yeah. And I mean, your positivity is quite infectious, so you need to find someone who's on that same vibe. No! You've just seen one day I went to have a four in the morning, it's not that effective. Leaking off onto her. Let's talk about that third eye of yours.

Malin Andersson 33:14 
I'm going to get caught absolutely crazy, but I don't come speaking my truth. What do you want to know?

Andy Smith 33:18 
So you're talking about meditation, getting into this level and you can open your third eye, so what's your third eye?

Malin Andersson 33:24 
Okay, so for people listening to this podcast, if you haven't done the amount of work to understand what a third eye is, you're gonna think I'm crazy, but bear with me. The third eye is located, it's your pineal gland, it's located between the brows in your brain, it doesn't actually look like another eye, but it can come across as that in like meditation, you might see an eye pop up when you meditate. Now, everyone wants to go on about unblocking your third eye and how do we access it in meditation, but it will open up when it's ready, right? So for me, it got to a point where I was really looking after myself around February, everything that was put into my body, fluoride, in the toothpaste, in the water, things I put on my skin, body wash, shower, gel, plug in freshness, fuck, they're terrible. Anything with the word fragrance in it is fucked. Did you know what I mean? Radiation, microwaves. All of these things affect our or our energetic field around us, right? And that affects our body and the frequency in which we are vibrating at, okay. So to access the third eye, I meditated regularly, but it started to open up itself the more I looked after myself. And so I'd go into meditation and okay, I'll give you an example. I did a half an hour meditation about two months ago, I saw flashing lights, a fire brigade and a blonde woman sat in a park that looked like Gemma Collins, who smiled at me. I was like, that is the most random thing that I could get in a meditation. But my visuals are so clear now. I can either get something that has happened before something that I'm about to do, or premonitions, or I get downloads. So I can get voices that come through my third eye that tell me I need to do something. So it's my highest self talking to me. And it's not my voice, like, you know, you have it in a fucking mind chatter. It's not that it's something external to myself, but in myself. And anyway, I saw this meditation, I was taking Zaya to the park, went to the park, go out the car. Zaya's grabbed the fucking keys and locked herself in the car. And I was like, fuck, that's never happened to me in my life. I looked at it and I was like, shit, it's BMW, it's a fucking clever car. My phone was in the car, otherwise I would have unlocked it with the app, right? And I was like, okay, I need to call a fire brigade. And lo and behold, the fire brigade comes. Remember, I was meditating about an hour ago, flashing lights for a fire brigade. Everything was fine. She was fine. Fire brigade got her out, took her to the park. There was this blonde fucking woman who looked exactly like Gemma Collins sat on the bench, who just smiled at me. And I got goosebumps. And I was like, Marlon, you had this premonition, right? But it means and what that shows me is that time is an illusion. Time is actually a construct that has been made. Okay, we have past present future that has been given to us. The time on the clock has been given to us. But we're actually living in different timelines and different realities. That's the whole number ballgame. And I could talk about this. And that goes into quantum physics. But it then showed me and opened up my consciousness to another level that there is a lot more than the brain that we use. We use like, what, 20% of our brain? Yeah, there's so much fucking more to it, man. So then I started meditating more. And then I started remote viewing, I could put myself in different locations, I could sense certain things. One of my friends was crying in a meditation message to her. I was like, I'm just in a bad place at the minute. But why did I just see her face crying, you know? And I started thinking I was going fucking mad until I started doing more research in science terms, because we get this spiritual woo woo that's thrown on us, right? Yeah, it becomes another fucking religion spirituality, you have the dreadlocks, I get the crystals out and be like, Oh, sage, you know, you can fall into that trap as well. And don't get me wrong, there's no problem with people that look like that or have the sage. But it's actually real life. And this is what I'm trying to get across. Yeah, our bodies are fucking superhuman, man. Like we have the power to unlock a lot within us. But we're so suppressed. We're so suppressed from accessing these things. Deep. Nice. But yeah.

Andy Smith 37:15 
So let's bring it down a level. Let's talk about what does a day in Marlin look like? So in terms of your wellness timeline, jumping in.

Malin Andersson 37:23 
That's a different reality. No, I'm joking. Yeah, I know.

Andy Smith 37:26 
So, you know, you've mentioned a meditation, but from the time you go to bed or the time you wake up, is there any other wellness things you implement that, you know, what's your routine look like? How do you keep so level?

Malin Andersson 37:42 
So when I've got Zaya and it's a full day of Zaya and she's not the child miners or her dad's, I have to be as present as I can for her. I give up on trying to do any work, trying to do any emails because that has taken me away from my flow state because she's going to interrupt me, right? So I dedicate to just being playful and releasing the inner child and playing with her. So I wake up, have my breakfast, have my mushroom coffee. I do like to vape now and then still, I'm not going to lie. It doesn't seem to affect me. I'm on heavy metal detox, which I take daily. Terrence Howard actually was doing it on his podcast. Do you know Terrence Howard? Yeah, yeah, yeah. Was that the Joe Rogan one? He still smokes, right? And his eyes taking these drops. And I take the same fucking drops as him. It's just something that I do as a bit of a release. I have ADHD. It's always going to be with me, but when I get pregnant again, I'll stop. And then I kind of cheer. I'll take her out. I like to go nature. I'm very fortunate. I've got a forest in the back of my garden and I'll ground myself. I'll get sunshine because sunlight is what we need, right? And I'll play with her and have fun. And I'll do some cooking. If I don't have a, and I'm working, this is where I've balanced the fine line with what people like to call manifesting, which I don't agree with that term, because we are actually consciously creating every single thing of our existence in every second. And we think manifesting is outside of us. And we should create a vision board. And one day I'll have this car and we can do anything we fucking want right now, but we have to have it integrated into our system. So to do that, you have to believe you're worthy of getting what you want. So you've got to do all the inner work, right? But you also have to understand that you have to be in a flow state and no resistance to it. So if I feel like doing emails or feel like working or filming or creating content, and I feel really like yummy about it and good about it, I'm going to do it. And that, I'm in that energy that's matching that. And I'll do it and I'll produce really good content. And then I'll stop and I'll chill. I might go meditate, lay on the mat. I work out every day, well, four or five days a week. I'll do a bit of strength training, maybe some yoga. And I'll really listen to my body now, which I never did before. I overworked myself and the results were less. I work less now. And my abundance around me is completely chain. So it's backwards to what people are taught. It's completely backwards. That's actually how it works. And that sounds nuts. Do you get what I mean though? Do you understand it?

Andy Smith 40:06 
No, it's good. You have to create.

Malin Andersson 40:08 
a life that you want, where work isn't your work. Work is a part of who you are, but the term work is outside of ourselves again. Today I've got to go to work. No, no, today I'm going to be playful, create some content, I want to do this. I want to create a wellness day so I can help people. For me, I know that I was put here to help and to heal and to talk. And I find playful, I find it high vibing when I'm doing stuff like that. So it doesn't feel like work for me. You know what I mean? With what you're doing, you're transforming people's lives by teaching them about a product that can actually help fucking people. And so whatever will come to you will flow to you in that state, because you're in the state of giving.

Andy Smith 40:46 
Mm-hmm

Malin Andersson 40:48 
And a lot of people are in resistance to that.

Andy Smith 40:50 
Yeah. No. It's good.

Malin Andersson 40:51 
Give me free therapy.

Andy Smith 40:53 
Yeah. I know. Do you know what? I'm falling really deep into this. I'm forgetting my next question. I'm getting too engrossed in the last answer. I'm going to take another curveball. So, talking about body-body image. Oh, I've got you. Obviously, after coming out of Love Island, body image has obviously been quite a big part of the story. It's even before, yeah. And before. But I feel like you're looking at body image a little bit differently these days. But, you know, still want to keep your body image. Everybody does, but I feel like you're doing it in different ways. So, is body image to you at the moment? You know, is that in your forefront? How does that sit?

Malin Andersson 41:28 
So that is one of the last things to go in terms of purging all this darkness that was in me through childhood and limiting beliefs, right? And it was something my mom used to say to me some time, oh, you gained a bit of weight, I'd hear them. Eat healthy, eat healthy. She used to hide any bad snack we had in the washing machine and give us a treat on a Friday. Got to go to my friend's house down the road, binge on another sweet cupboard, come back. I developed a really unhealthy relationship with food from a young age. It consumed my fucking childhood, my teenage years when I first learned how to diet. And then I forgot for us into the pageant world, cabin crew where they weighed you on flights. I flew with Emirates. They'd weigh us. If I skirt too tight, they'd be like, you need to go on a diet. They don't want to love island. I was fucking choosing things that were fucking harming me, right? But actually they were my godsend because they were just showing me where I needed to heal. And then I gained a lot of weight when I was pregnant with Zay and I was at my biggest, right? And so the past two and a half years, I lost six stone through strength training and eating well. But even a year ago when I'd lost the majority of my weight, I got into a bad little cycle with bulimia popping back up and over restricting, overdoing it at the gym, getting too obsessed with the chest day, legs day fucking thing. And I then addressed that and yeah, around January I stopped everything and I just turned to yoga and running and decided to listen to what I wanted that morning of each day that I woke up in. And I'd be like, what am I doing today? And I started understanding that I'm listening to what my body is telling me what it wants now, if that makes any sense. So I will feed it things because I want to feed it good stuff now. I'm not forcing myself to feed it a salad. If I want to give it a salad, it's because it's telling me it wants it.

Andy Smith 43:13 
put something in there that it enjoys, it just thanks you for it.

Malin Andersson 43:17 
Yeah, and I'll strength train because it makes me feel so strong and good. But I've got a mind to body connection now when I'm strength training. Whereas I'll just doing it. Unconsciously. I'm consciously being aware of everything that I'm doing now. But that took a lot of getting rid of those shit beliefs around food, body image. We live in a society where it's probably one of the hardest things. Don't get me wrong, I could still look in the mirror and be like, oh God, but I have to switch it and bring it back because it's about implanting new pathways in the brain so we can start to think differently. When you think differently, you act differently. And you believe things about yourself differently.

Andy Smith 43:52 
So what would you say? I think it's a good question in terms of what's more important to you now, the mind or the body.

Malin Andersson 43:58 
Um, I think the mind follows a body. So I think the body is the most important fucking thing. So you've got the mind, body and soul, right? Um, the soul knows the body holds on the mind follows. Um, the body is the biggest key, the biggest key looking after your body. Yeah, that looks, then looks after your mind. We think we should be living in our heads when we really shouldn't.

Andy Smith 44:19 
Yeah, so you've been on this long healing journey, you've I think you've reached a completely different space in your life now. Is there any lessons you've learned along the way that you in in the healing side of things that you can pass on to anybody else that you think that would help them get to the space you're in right now?

Malin Andersson 44:39 
Yeah, you have to stop what you're doing. And I get a lot of people go, but I can't, I've got this. I've got five kids and I'm doing it. Yeah, that's what's going on. You're you're working, you're trying to do too much when your nervous system is like that. If I can quit the job, then the people are going to panic and be like, I can't get the money. That's not how it works at all. But we live in a society where they where they say you have to be overworking your fucking whole body off and then what to retire and then fucking die. It doesn't work like that. You need to create a space for yourself where you can devote time to you to sit with yourself. Lie down on that bloody mat and just stop.

Andy Smith 45:18 
Mm-hmm.

Malin Andersson 45:19 
Stop what you're doing so you can access parts of yourself you didn't know existed. Because we're so blocked. So if I said anything, if I could say anything to anyone, it'd be just to sit still for a fucking hour each day and do nothing.

Andy Smith 45:30 
So that's the point in which you would say, that's the point to start.

Malin Andersson 45:34 
Yep, then it will start unlocking. You stick with instillness, you will allow things to come through. You keep running, you're just gonna be living burnt out.

Andy Smith 45:42 
Perfect way to start is to stop. Yeah, wow, exactly. So, isn't it? That's a good quote. Yeah, there we go. It's going to be on Instagram tomorrow. OK, cool. I mean, so we've mentioned your book. Where else can people find you if they want to, you know, if they want to access what you're going through and learn more about your story?

Malin Andersson 46:05 
So my Instagram, Ms. Marlon-Sara, and then it's the same on TikTok, but I've just started a podcast, which is going to be out next week called Conscious Conversations. And I'm going to be hosting Wellness Days, but not Wellness Days where you come for a sound buff and you're legal, happy. I want you to fucking leave crying. I want you to feel and address the trauma. So my first one's on the 5th of October at the Cambridge Country Club, and it's going to have Kundalini activation, breath work, meditation, talks from different people, myself. I think what I want people to get from hearing me is to see the life that I have lived and to see what has happened to me and understand that the only way I could address all of these things and come to a place where I am now, where I'm in abundance in my mind, body, and soul is to stop and sit still and listen to yourself. Yeah.

Andy Smith 46:54 
That's what I want. Great. Thank you so much. Thank you for having me. Spending all that time and energy with us. It's amazing. So thank you again for listening to another episode of the PMF podcast. If you're listening to Spotify, Apple, or watching us on YouTube, please leave a review, five star if possible, and we'll get more guests like Marlon Anderson and we can share more.